A memoir about the intertwining of memory and the body.

When the author Francesca Rhydderch begins to experience mysterious and debilitating symptoms that doctors believe to be neurological, she finds herself not only fighting for answers in the present but also sifting through her past. As we flit between her childhood home and NHS waiting rooms, between Llanelli, New Quay and Cardiff, Rhydderch creates a portrait of a family in fragments. We see the lives of her parents, the glamorous, exciting Toots and solid, seafaring Dad, her childhood with her two sisters and brother, the gap left by her parent’s untimely death and her life in Cardiff with her own two children. These portraits of life and love are intertwined with the author’s own fight for answers about what is happening to her body and mind, for diagnosis, and for a way to live in her new future.